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Character Name: Sabitsuki
Canon: .flow
AU/OC/Previous Game: canon
Age: 16 (non-canon estimate)

Appearance:
Sabitsuki is about 5'5", with white hair and red eyes. She appears sickly and thin, with dark circles under her eyes, the result of not nearly enough sleep and far too much time spent in front of a computer screen.
Cause of Death:
It's assumed that at the end of .flow, Sabitsuki loses her mind as a result of her progressing illness before she's incapacitated and ultimately killed by one of the Sugar Hole's maids.
Impact of Death:
Death is the end, the inevitability for Sabitsuki. While she aims to avoid it, spending hours within flow in an attempt to preserve herself, she holds no sunny outlooks on her ultimate fate. It is less her own death and more the lack of that absolute oblivion she assumed death would bring that will unsettle her.
References Link: http://dotflow.wikidot.com/sabitsuki
Character Info:
Hospitalized from a young age thanks to a terminal illness, Sabitsuki is the polar opposite of "social". She refuses to leave her room, cutting herself off from the outside world and choosing to pass her time in flow, a dream-like state that she enters when using her computer. The bizarre landscapes that her mind constructs while in flow are notably void of other people. When she does come into contact with people in flow, they tend to be threatening presences: a former school mate who lashes out against her, a corrupt doctor, droves of bleeding zombie-like children, and vicious, formerly-human creatures called kaibutsu. Her extreme preference for isolation stems part from these traumatic figures from her subconscious, and in part from the quarantined life she led due to her illness (she frequently envisions herself as sick and isolated in her dreamscapes: her doppleganger appears alone in an empty hospital room, amongst the zombie children in an isolated corner, floating unconscious in a tube, and wandering alone and hidden in an empty world filled with snow and pollution).

In addition to outside threats, her own body is also cause for alarm to Sabitsuki - understandable, as her diease seems to cause her body to slowly deteriorate. She is almost hyper-aware of her condition, and many of the items (called effects) she discovers in her subconscious further reinforce her preoccupation with her appearance. The "tumbling doll" effect causes her limbs to disappear, leaving her a bloodied trunk, while the "viscera" effect causes her intestines to spill out of her abdomen, and the "machine" effect replaces her legs with machinized stilts. Each of the effects disfigures her or renders her "incomplete", speaking to the manner in which she views herself as similarly "defective".

While much of her life has been defined by her illness, and while she seems intent on denying outside help, Sabitsuki is not the sort of girl to take things lying down. Her heavy use of flow seems to be, in part, an attempt to seek out a cure or a deeper understanding of herself through exploring her subconscious and her past. Even when events that occur in flow cause her physical harm (encountering an especially traumatic event while in flow causes Sabitsuki to cough up blood in the real world), she is undeterred, continuing to sit at a computer desk caked in her own blood. Indeed, the psychological term "flow" from which the game appears to derive its name is defined as "the mental state of operation in which a person in an activity is fully immersed in a feeling of energized focus [and] full involvement...".

Sabitsuki is a calm, creative, albeit cynical individual when in her right mind. The landscapes her mind creates while in flow are dreary and occasionally threatening, true, but also speak to a creative mind capable of crafting metaphorical landscapes out of true memories (her memories of the hospital where she spent her childhood, for example, manifest as both a real hospital and as a plant-covered cave filled with bizarre flora and zombie children). These locales are also full of symbols and drawings -- scribblings appear on the walls of abandoned apartments, bizarre art blooms out of the walls of a run-down gallery and an underwater temple, and Oreko, a small girl who takes up residence in her subconscious can be seen creating a number of complex machines and rooms throughout Sabitsuki's dreamscape. Additionally, one of the most iconic items that Sabitsuki uses is a pair of orange headphones that play music when activated - it's obvious that art and creativity occupy a large part of Sabitsuki's mind. However, she is aware that the world isn't a fair place, and likewise her dreary mindscape reflects this. Regardless of the actual circumstances behind Sabitsuki's experiences in the hospital, or while in school, it's clear that she doesn't view these traditionally safe spaces as safe. Her schoolmates are distant and alienting, the doctors are corrupt, and judging from her current situation, she is far more likely to depend on her own resources than upon the help of others.

Sabitsuki is not physically defenseless, either. She wields a steel pipe during her excursions in flow, and is in no way above attacking others if she so chooses. However, Sabitsuki in and of herself isn't as dangerous as much as she is simply accustomed to dealing with the horrific situations that arise within her own mind. However, her illness has not only taken a toll on her body, but on her mind as well. It is strongly implied that there is "another Sabitsuki" lurking within her subconscious, a personality known as Rust that arose from the mental damage her disease caused. Rust emerges in full force at the end of .flow, after Sabitsuki's current canon point, but it's worth noting that the Rust persona has the ability to influence Sabitsuki's actions in a very real capacity, making her much more aggressive and violent. For example, Smile, the schoolmate whom murders Sabitsuki while she is in flow reappears to Rust, who is able to strike him down without a second thought.

Abilities (after Powercap):
N/A - Sabitsuki's just your average, terminally ill human.

Items Brought In:
- A steel pipe
- The "Cat" effect, an item that allows her to turn into a cat


Samples
Introduce yourself in a few sentences.
My name is Sabitsuki, I'm 16, and I'm dying slowly. Or I was dying slowly, and now I'm dead, and I left this world after someone cut off my legs with a chainsaw and left me to die in a puddle of my own blood. I think. I might have been crazy when it happened, so I don't have the best recollection of the events. It was a completely fantastic end to a really super duper awesome life, and it's really super nice to meet you <3 <3 <3 <3

Describe yourself physically.
Really fucking pale. Like blend-in-with-the-wall pale and also about 15 kilos. Give or take. Also I'm usually covered in blood, which is always pleasant. A/S/L I'll show you a good time baby.

What was your childhood like?
Lonely. It was four white walls and it smelled of antiseptic. There were white linens and and the beep of the heart monitor, and sometimes there were visits with other in-patients. They all died, for the most part. That was always fun.

Who is most important to you, and why?
Myself. There's no one else, and until now I guess you could say I liked myself enough to not want to die, which is more than I could say about anyone else.

What's your biggest pet peeve?
People. They're everywhere, they're loud and annoying, and they have this really great Transformer power going for them, where when there are a bunch of them together, they manage to get stupider and louder and even more annoying.

Do you consider yourself an optimist or a pessimist? Why?
Okay let me be straight with you here, it's really fucking hard to be an optimist. I tried once but waking up every day and going "Wow golly I can't wait to spend my waking hours hallucinating terrible and completely baffling things while coughing up blood!" got really old really fast.

Where, or how, did you learn your most important skills?
So for a while I've been doing this thing where I stare at the computer screen until I zone out and start hallucinating things. Stay with me now, this is where shit gets wild. I wander around in my hallucination land and kill things. I haven't gone outside in god knows how long, but I sure get around in my head, and I've sure gotten really good at bludgeoning people to death while I'm at it. I don't have a whole bunch of other skills. Unless dominating at boring as fuck video games counts.

Do you think world peace is possible?
No. Look at it this way, okay? There are six billion people, and a good chunk of them like to get really pissed off for no reason. Not that I blame them -- my point being people like being dicks, and they like doing things that they like, so conflict is always going to be kicking around. Peace is BS.

Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?
I don't like talking to people. Ever. Sometimes, in my head, they try to kill me, though. So I guess if "argue" and "beat to death in self defense" are interchangable, then yeah, you could say I tend to argue with people.

What turns you on the most?
Look I know you're trying to be cute or whatever, but "turned on" doesn't happen much when "trying not to die a lot" is the more pressing priority.

Anything else you'd like to say?
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧Fuckers!*:・ﾟ✧*:・ﾟ